on a happier note

:) the emails from fang nv fail to put a smile on my face :) thank God for such a dear sister.

n i can feel another friendship getting stronger :) problems and tears - the ingredients to a growing friendship n sisterhood :)

the things i went through w the girls i lead in dg encouraged and reminded me. even though those were things that i've studied last year in the dg i'm in. even as i lead, i'm learning new things too :)

In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade-kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.
1peter1:3-7

indeed, all we need to rejoice in is salvation.

:D

that aside, i'm starting to think abt what things to do when the sem's over in abt a month's time. right now there's:

cycling to pierce reservoir
geylang taohuay w meihui/shi en/ber that got postponed from last time
karaoke! (preferably the 10bucks one. adora i need to make up for the last session i missed! haha)
treetop walk with my parents :D (don't know if my mum can tahan walking 12km though. hmm)
island creamery (pear, we can wait till u're back from taiwan!)
CE class w wang ye (exciting!)
outing w my little xiao zu (qing en's been pestering me for abt 2 weeks now..)
finally putting tgt the parcel to send to crossroads w kaising
finally finishing what we have to do w dabestclique
bball w dabestclique (haha this is highly unachievable. we always end up w dinners)

:D the holidays look good now. incentive to prowl through the rest of the weeks!

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life's not been very interesting lately. because i don't find going from project meeting to project meeting with increasing backlog on readings and the looming finals interesting.

i need to focus on sch work, much as i don't like it. learning is fun. slogging for projects isn't.

need to start thinking and sourcing for internships seriously. otherwise i won't ever graduate. will need to either take one sem for it and leave summer hols free, or do it in summer hols. so tempted to take the one sem off. let's see how things go, if i'll be able to secure an internship i'm interested in for the coming sem. hmm.

it's late, i'm going to have faith that i can wake up early tmr morning to finish the assignment to be handed in by 11am.

i think i need to go for a run or sth. or eat chocolates. release some endorphins.

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over optimistic

i always think i've more time than i actually have.

today spent a little too much time at the hospital w ah ma + dad + aunt than i had originally planned. this time, felt disturbed by the other patient opposite ah ma. looking at that lady, I'm really thankful that ah ma is slping most of the time. at least she's not suffering as much as others seem to be. that other lady was so xin ku, with the phlegm at her throat. the sound was really scary. the ward's name is peace, but the place doesn't seem to be peaceful.. in abt 3 weeks' time, all the patients in her side of the ward have changed. turnover rate is really high :( when will her suffering end? when my dad and aunt were chatting abt the past, i could feel their sadness. this is starting to take a toil on her children too.. how long must this drag?

我们基督徒常说凡是都有神的美意在其中。但现在我还看不到那美意何在。“我要赞美，无论锝时不得时” 。唱得简单，做却很难。

two quizzes on fri. advertising and marketing research. sch work is really piling up now.

定睛看耶稣，不要惧怕，因为神与我同在。要记得我所相信的这位神也是圣经里记载那使寡妇的油和面不减少的神。

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astalkofrose

thank you meihui! we were under some staircase at bugis junction, n i got this under some 'mysterious' situation. haha. it was quite funny. the shopping was fun. :D I think it was the first time I've shopped this sem actually. n i really thank God that we were frank enough w each other. may the problems we faced and mistakes we made serve to strengthen the friendship instead of weaken it. :) (and i will curb my curiosity and only open the letter when i'm upset.)

i'm becoming more of a pig. yest night after shopping i was supposed to study for tmr's quiz. i ended up slping at 10 plus! then i was supposed to be up at 7am to study. but i ended waking at 8. which left not much time to study. so in the afternoon i was supposed to really study alrd. BUT i fell aslp within 10 mins of reading the notes. woke half an hour ltr, only to fall aslp almost immed after i resumed reading. knocked out for another half hour. which explains why i'm up at 1am now. -.-

shall go off to bed. hopefully i'll be able to wake up tmr to do some more revision before the test. sleep, here i come!

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you're beautiful

Stomp was FANTASTIC. more words won't do it justice, so i'll leave it at that. :D

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did i ever tell you that you have beautiful hair? and a beautiful voice. and a great dress sense. and you're always really fun to be around. :D but the most beautiful thing about you is your heart. heart of generosity, heart to accept others for who they are, effort to care and affirm those around you, willingness to listen, n above all else, a heart that constantly seeks to glorify God.

If I say, "surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139: 11-14

dear adora, there you go. the meaningful post for you.

:)

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quote of the day

was in the train w ting en to smu. yes we're studying in smu now. hardworking right!

me: my bag very heavy leh 

ting en: oh i put my books with my parents already, so my bag not heavy 

me: you rub salt in my wound hor

ting en: eh.. no la. it's not a wound. it's a.... mosquito bite

me: mosquito bite? 

ting: ya. it irritates for a while but won't leave a scar

!!! haha. 

(STOMP ltr! can't wait!)

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grossly underestimated

the amt of studying neede for FIIM. argh. it really takes a while for all those things to sink in. liquidity risk. bond yield. bid-ask spread, taking a long position/ short position (like huh?!), bearish/bullish market (huh again?!!)

grr

proj work's a pain too. this sem i've met the weirdest person that i know in smu. grp dynamics are weird this time too. and the projs are harder than before. year 3 isn't fun. -.-

which makes me ultra thankful for the coming STOMP.

but the rest of the time, i'll be studying. sighhhhh.
skipping tuan qi (and possibly dg on mon) isn't good. but what can i do since i so grossly underestimated the amt of studying to be done. i didn't think i'd need that much time to study. n so i happily packed the rest of recess. now that i've started studying, reality sets in and i realise how overly optimistic i was. hmpf.

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tick off the checklist

Yesterday was supposed to be spent studying for FIIM midterm. that's financial institutions, instruments, and markets for short. but it got taken up by project meeting instead. and the night was spent out w my parents + aunt :)

finally brought my parents (and my aunt who came along too) to Annalakshmi. My mother and my aunt hated it. haha. they both don't like indian food. and my father, though he loves indian food, thought the food was too salty. oh well. but at least i've completed what i set out to do this recess. bringing them to a food place i love (and thought my dad will love too). but in the end they were laughing at my weird taste in food -.-

then we headed to temple street for dessert. This my mother and aunt enjoyed. A lot. I was going to bring them to ji de chi BUT my aunt said she wanted to go to the temple street one. then they started laughing saying i have weird taste anyway, so safer to go to the other one. hmpf. then we went shopping at taka, where my aunt wanted to buy a pair of shoes for my mum. My aunt was getting my mum to try on almost every other pair of shoe in the shoe dept at taka. the two of them tgt is quite funny actually. then we ended the night with supper at crystal jade. they wanted to get seats on the train ride home, so we took the train to marina and back. and my aunt was so impressed at my ingenuity. apparently my cousin's nv done that w her. HAHA.

it was a night well spent :) even though it meant taking time that was meant for studying. But I figured that that was more important. I'm getting increasingly slack. just took another one hour nap today. the morning was spent at BBDO, an ad agency. the advertising class had an outing there. cool right! then visited ah ma at the hospital, and then there was proj meeting. though by the time i got home it was only 5pm, but i was tired alrd.

sighhhh. dg day out tmr. picnic at hort park! much as i'm looking forward to it, i really dread waking up early. ARGH. I'm more looking forward to the night with DABESTCLIQUE!!!!!

there's not much time to study for the midterm, but i guess i'll just have to make do. shall go start studying now!

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the week before n the week to come

I think I haven't been really focused lately.

The week went by, just like that. highlights of the week? dinner w ahkar, ellen n dad. expensive dinner, but that was the time that i laughed the hardest in the entire week, maybe even in the entire month. :) it's qt amazing how a friendship formed in 3 days has been sustained for 3 years now. i guess bouncing back on the marina bay train is good bonding activity :D geylang taohuay after fellowship on sat. :) need i say more? a short time of lunch w rong n yk n mh, w our weird sense of humour. :)

It really pains me to see ah ma lying on the hospital bed suffering. we're just waiting now? waiting doesn't feel good. n waiting's tiring.

The week to come, tentatively looks manageable now, w time to fit in even kbox. but i think it's the heart that's a lil tired. n the nagging thought at the back of my mind that i have yet started on any of the readings assigned for marketing research. should really make good use of the recess week. but i really miss just watching tv w my parents n sis in law. n gg to the library w my niece. cycling n toiling at the soil w my dad. helping my mother in the kitchen. n i'd love to spend more time w ah ma in the hospital, even though she can't respond to me anymore, doesn't even recognise me anymore.

My resolution for the week is to spend an afternoon/morning w my parents. Hopefully we'll get to go to the Indian food place, and dessert afterward. Pa likes indian food, Ma likes dessert. Will there be time to go to the treetop walk with them? My father loves nature, n my mother needs some pushing to get over the inertia for exercising.

My niece needs more company. Sometimes I really think my brother and sis in law don't spend enough time w her. n somehow i'd like to make up for that on their behalf.

Sometimes I think I'm a lil weird. I don't see pple my age wanting for so much time w their parents. I think because of my parents' age, I view them a lot more preciously than my peers? I don't know. Or maybe I just haven't grown up.

My 小组 needs more attention. I don't want to lose the sheep that God has placed in my care.

Why does this post sound so sad n disjointed?

Time to stop.

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