the week before n the week to come

I think I haven't been really focused lately.

The week went by, just like that. highlights of the week? dinner w ahkar, ellen n dad. expensive dinner, but that was the time that i laughed the hardest in the entire week, maybe even in the entire month. :) it's qt amazing how a friendship formed in 3 days has been sustained for 3 years now. i guess bouncing back on the marina bay train is good bonding activity :D geylang taohuay after fellowship on sat. :) need i say more? a short time of lunch w rong n yk n mh, w our weird sense of humour. :)

It really pains me to see ah ma lying on the hospital bed suffering. we're just waiting now? waiting doesn't feel good. n waiting's tiring.

The week to come, tentatively looks manageable now, w time to fit in even kbox. but i think it's the heart that's a lil tired. n the nagging thought at the back of my mind that i have yet started on any of the readings assigned for marketing research. should really make good use of the recess week. but i really miss just watching tv w my parents n sis in law. n gg to the library w my niece. cycling n toiling at the soil w my dad. helping my mother in the kitchen. n i'd love to spend more time w ah ma in the hospital, even though she can't respond to me anymore, doesn't even recognise me anymore.

My resolution for the week is to spend an afternoon/morning w my parents. Hopefully we'll get to go to the Indian food place, and dessert afterward. Pa likes indian food, Ma likes dessert. Will there be time to go to the treetop walk with them? My father loves nature, n my mother needs some pushing to get over the inertia for exercising.

My niece needs more company. Sometimes I really think my brother and sis in law don't spend enough time w her. n somehow i'd like to make up for that on their behalf.

Sometimes I think I'm a lil weird. I don't see pple my age wanting for so much time w their parents. I think because of my parents' age, I view them a lot more preciously than my peers? I don't know. Or maybe I just haven't grown up.

My 小组 needs more attention. I don't want to lose the sheep that God has placed in my care.

Why does this post sound so sad n disjointed?

Time to stop.